Souls Re-Shoed Here

What I have learned today, and really in the last several months, is that there are friends, there are best friends, and there are soul connections.  All are blessings.  Only the third is permanent.  With some soul connections, it would be easier, at times, if they were not that; no matter, they are.  I believe you choose your friends and you choose your best friends.  I believe soul connections are brought into your life by forces both Divine and universal. 

I gained this knowledge by learning from the example of someone I consider a soul connection.  This individual showed me that it is okay to let go of some of the people in your life when the shared experience with them has run its course, even if you still hold them dear.

A week ago, a friend told me that I am too quick to appropriate the expectation of a soul connection with the people, and especially the ladies, who come into my life.  Kerry, my therapist, and a few of my other friends, have told me that I am quick to give away the best aspects of who I am to anyone I meet, whether or not they have demonstrated the worthiness of that level of emotional investment.  They are right, and it has been a painful lesson in the course of experiencing my relatively newly acquired capacity for feeling.  I know now that it is okay to hold in reserve the best of what I have to offer another person for those who are truly special - for those who are soul connections.

I really wish we lived in a world where we could all freely give away the best of ourselves to each other, and know that we would always get the same in return.  We don't.  The world we live in is a good one, I just want it to be perfect. I try to make that happen for all those around me.  The lesson learned is that I can only effectively make it happen for some - the soul connections - who are willing and ready to receive it and who, hopefully, wish to reciprocate.

"There's a Light Beyond These Woods (Mary Margaret)", Nanci Griffith.