I think the reason Lynn's memory has lingered into this week from the last is that she is spontaneous. The idea of spending time with her does not seem to be an obligation, or in any way stifling. She is a pick-up-and-go kinda woman. I love that about her!
Previously, when I have considered the possibility of a partner by my side there was always that double-edged, good-bad quality to it all. The thought of Lynn has only one edge that is keen as a razor, and in no way bad. She's just pretty awesome to be around. I cannot believe I'm going on like this about someone I cannot even speak to face-to-face for another three months. Oh well, it feels good, and I refuse to couch that good feeling. Anyway, my hearts s fully protected and perched firmly on my sleeve!
When I wrote "Miss Lynn" on my itinerary last week, I was not counting on the "Miss" part to be used as a verb, but that's the direction my heart has taken it, and I like it. I find this woman to be a rejeuvenating presence in my life!
These feelings are the best and worst of what I need. It is scary and reassuring, and wonderful and terrible, and confusing as hell while, at the same time, being quite clear. It makes no sense and it is the most logical idea I can imagine. In a word...WOW!
"Bring Me to Life", Evanescence.
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