As I was driving home from the diner last night listening to my iPod and enjoying my "me time", I got to thinking, maybe I should be careful what I wish for and what I wish away. This newfound self-confidence thing is taking me places, emotionally, where I have not been in a very long time. One of those places is enjoying who I am, as I am, right now and totally in the moment. Now, mind you, I am quite emphatically certain I want to find a top notch partner to share this with. The right woman could only make my experience better at this point, but that person is not just any woman. She will have to be very special.
A woman who is going to be able to love me and to receive the full benefit of my love must absolutely be a strong individual. I think that I am someone who wants to be, but does not absolutely need to be, in a relationship. I think in order for a woman to fully get on with me she must be of a similar mindset. I could not long tolerate a relationship where one partner had to defer to the other as a condition of their normal routine. Honestly, I would not benefit from that kind of deference in either direction. I still feel called by God to be a care provider and crisis manager for my parents and for their household. So, I would need to meet a woman who can, genuinely and without compromise, respect that aspect of who I choose to be, even if she does not fully understand it.
I am fairly certain that there probably are not many women in the world who could accept me and also be willing to share my time with the demands that are already in place in my life. That said, I believe there is someone for everyone, and that the special woman I have described does exist. I just have to find her. I'm workin' on it, and puttin' the feelers out, too!
"Freedom! '90", George Michael.
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