Loneliness is Tough

So, my jumping off point (no pun intended) with Vickie is having arrived to a level of self-confidence wherein it feels natural to offer myself socially as a person who is both available and worthy to date.  Arriving at this point is a huge victory and hard-won battle for me, personally, and a testament to Vickie's work and caring, too.

The flip-side of owning and using all this newly accepted sense of self-confidence is that it sort of resets the contuinance of progress to a new starting point.  I am not Brad Pitt.  The idea of me having women lined up, clamoring over themselves to meet me is not realistic.  I will have to go out repeatedly and hope to run across the right individual.  My good friend Erica tells me that one of our mutual friends is a good match-maker, and that I should describe the kind of woman I am looking to date and she will find for me an agreeable companion.  At this point, I just have to say, "What the heck!", and go with it.  After all, she can do no worse than I've done up to this point.

Then, there is the loneliness.  It is continuing and pervasive.  The thing with loneliness is it just never seems to go away.  No matter how much of a brave face you try to put on, no matter how much you try to spin it, it's there.

"Only the Lonely", Roy Orbison.